First week of school

I've just had my first week of school, just started the second week now.
I moved a week before school bagan, but I'm pretty known in the area so it doesn't really bother me. As soon as i moved here I applied for a job, and I got it! So now I'm working part time as a telephoen seller. A horrible job, or not horrible, just tiering, and psychially breaking. You get a lot of angry people, luckily many nice once and short ones too, buut I might wish I could get a job in one of the local drugstores or something. Then I could work in holidays, and maybe on saturdays too, and I would earn some more money.
I'm planning on taking half of my money and put it away in a saving account for later schools or house etc, but I don't know. Its not THAT much money you know.

Anyway my first schoolweek went just fine. I was at school all the days, last school year I used to be gone 1-2 days a week, but I still managed to get grades in all my classes, so thats good. My goal for this year is less abscence, and better grades of course.
I've been part in things that I would usually rin away from, like class trip out in the woods/fields etc, things we as a class do as a group, I've been a part of and also gotten two 'friends'. At least people I've spoken some more with.
They seem lovely. My whole class seem nice, which I am really happy for. The teatchers as well, they have some different rules and main points here than I am used too,  but else it seems very good.

My boyfriend is a lot at my place, and I'm really glad for it. I've started to miss him so much even though we saw each other for like 9 hours ago. Basicly I miss him all the time. I just hope the ones I rent apartment as is fine with him being here so much, but we try to switch sometimes, so I'm at his place too! :D

Moving

As I'm moving next summer, I am beginning to notice the little things I like with the town I live it, and the little things I'm probably going to miss.
It can be the small things, like its easy to get to and from it. It has a central buss- and train station. Two shoppingmals, not big, but charming. We're getting a tattoo studio here in may, and I'm very very excited to get tattooed there! We have cinema, swimming, and training in one place, which makes it easy to go from one activity to another. Not that I'm very active though, but its still great for everyone else, and just to have the opportunity to go swimming and go to the cinema right after for example. I also know where everything is, but I guess I'll get used to all the new stuff after I have moved. I'm moving to Kragerø, which is also closer to my  boyfriend. I will start on a new school, hopefully start with more activities, and learn my way around there after a while. I think it'll be great!

Me and my booboo from last summer!

Gift & Tattoo!

Hi! I'm so excited, my mom just said yes ( FOR REAL!) for me to get a tattoo! We've been talking about it for a long time, and the last time she let me I was one year too young! But now we have discussed it again, and she will let me have it as long as I pay for it myself!
Its going to be a very small and simple tattoo, but I will probably make more to it as the year passes.
Right now I'm just going for the date ( The date my grandfather died), and then I also want a robin bird on the side, or sitting one of the numbers, perhaps a semicolon under. I have a little plan for what I want the final result to be, but now I am one way closer!

I have also bought a present to my boyfriend. I think I've mentioned it before, and I even got some money left (which is why I can afford the tattoo)
I am way too excited to receive and give it to him! I know he has had a rough time lately, and I really want to give him the best I can and cheer him up as much as possible!
I will post a picture of the present when he has got it, I don't dare to do it before! As the stalker he is he will probably find it and then it will be no surprise anymore! But I can say so much that its a very rare, but amazing gift (in my mind at least)!


My boyfriend also gave me the best birthday present ever! I have become such a fan of Sherlock Holmes, mainly the series on BBC, but I've watched some old documentaries too and films, and read one book. Now he bough me one big book, with all the stories in! So I'll be able to read them whenever I want! Sometimes I feel like I have the best boyfriend ever. Actually I catch myself thinking that all the time.

Negative>Posetive

I'm amazed by how people can hear one positive thing about someone and then go like ''Oh my GOD, I can't believe you don't like him!'' Because to me the negative sides kinda weight up on the positive. If there's more annoying sides to a person, that good, or more negative sides than positive...  those positive sites don't weight up as much as the negatives.
I see no point in bothering to be with people who makes me sad, annoys me to that level it really pisses me off, or who's just mean.
In my opinion you can't hear one positive thing and go on like how great they sound, when you haven't heard or cared to ask for the negatives.
Negative sides always ( to me at least ) weight up on the positive.

for my grandfather

I would guess that the reason why people always hold on to their memories, their past, is because that’s the only thing that won't change. Ever. Even when everything else is a mess, when everything else around them changes, the past stays still. It will always be the same. Some memories wakes a grin behind the grief, and some would tear your heart to pieces, but those memories will stay the same, only fade a little along with time.

I often think of the past. What were, and what could have become. I’m always asking the same questions; Where are you now? Who are you with? Do you feel pain, or do you miss anyone? Do you exist at all?

You have so many religions, so many different beliefs, and I just can’t figure out what to believe. It’s easy finding out what you want to believe. I want to believe that you live, a happy life, just in another place. A place where you don’t feel pain, or sorrow. I want to believe that, because I want it to be true. I know you deserve it to be true. But it all just sounds like a dream, because I know that in the end we all just decay and turn into dust.

I can’t go to the graveyard even, not only because I’m scared, and so so sad. But because it feels pointless. No matter how many roses I would lay on that stone, no matter how many words I would whisper to your corpse; you’d still be dead, and there is no way I can change that. 

My grandfather, and me as a baby

Money saving!

Hey, I've mostly written about things I'm sad about, now I'm going to write a motivation post to myself for saving up money until April.
April is kinda a big month for me, there are a lot of people I know who's celebrating their birthdays, that including my boyfriend. So I kinda need some money. I also want a lot of stuff for myself but I have decided to but that to side and only focus on the gifts I want to buy. If I've calculated right I want to save up $1265

I feel like I'm on the road to become a better person.

                                        or just expect more stuff from others heh.

Vegan lasagne, haircolor change and school

I've applied for another school, so if they allow me to start there I will start on a new school after the summer holiday. Good to just get over with it, can't really stand my school and I'm tired every day. No matter how much I rest or even if I sleep well I'm tired.

Anyway I have  some things to be happy about;
Today me and my boyfriend has been together for nine months and its only four months until we celebrate one year. Hopefully we'll get there.
This weekend, when I was with my boyfriend I bought this vegan minced meat thingy, and it was the first time I have ever tried to cook alone and I made lasagne.
The vegan meat turned out pretty good, I can use it in almost everything, like taco lasagne etc.
I got surprised when it was so delicious cause I've bought several other soya hot dogs and they tasted like crap. I'm so happy that I at least have some really good food I can make for myself, and my boyfriend which we both can eat. He didn't even taste the difference between that meat and the normal meat he eats!

And one more thing, I got so tired of coloring my hair every second month even though I LOVE the color. So I colored it in another permanent color. Kinda crappy really. Its purple, but really dark purple. I thought that if I blended it out with some conditioner it would lighten up, buuut it didn't.
So now I have really dark purple hair, you can barely call it purple.

I feel like the dark lord Satan or something with my refreshed dark hair.

Pink hair

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