Proud~

This post is to my boyfriend, not just because he is my boyfriend. I actually did write him a text like this a while back when we were just friends. So now I'm going to do it again, just a bit more emotional.

I am very proud of you, not only because you seem to keep up with me, but because to me you seem like a very strong person emotionally.
I know you suffer with depression, have problem sleeping and eat way to little, but you make it through the day without complaining and you go to your work and do your job.

You take as good care of your son as you possibly can, that is something I find very attractive and safe about you. Because you are not, obviously, together with your son's mother, but still you try to see him as much as you can, and you try to give him as much money and love as you can. The love you can show seem to me to have no limits.

I'm not trying to say that you are flawless, I'm not gonna lie. You as everyone else has something , we all have some issues. What is so great is that we can sit down and talk about it if it becomes a problem. 

I'm not saying that you are the only guy who would take care for his son, but I'm sure some guys wouldn't if they didn't get to see their child so much, when they have no other contact with the mother. Some would maybe not care that much at all, or try to forget, but you faced the problem from the start and you really do care for him now.
That's something I look up to you for, and perhaps envy you for. I really adore the love you show toward your kid, and the look in your eyes when you talk about him. It's like I can see the love in your eyes.

I know you have been afraid that it will be a problem in our relationship, but he will be a part of your life until you die, which means that if I myself at all want our relationship to work I just have to bite my lip and let you love him just as much, or maybe (hopefully?) more than me. And that my dear, I intend to do.
I really want you to know that it won't ruin or bother our relationship in anyway, rather will make it even better and stronger.
I want you to spend as much time with him with him as possible, even though it means I get a less time with you, it will be worth it.

I am not saying that to be kind, I am saying that to be honest.

You give me a safety feeling I haven't felt before. I am not afraid of losing you in the same way I have been to lose others before. We can discuss anything, and fight, but I can always trust you and there seem to be no need for me to have these anxiety feeling of losing you, as I may have because of other experiences, because you show me over and over why I can trust you, and you show me love, and that you care for me.
I don't like to fight, but when we do, it never last long and it always end in laughter.

I really appreciate it, and I hope that it can last ♥