I won't let you suffocate me

 This is a song I wrote in one of my more or less depressive moments. Buuuut it didn't turn out that bad, I think;

Take your beauty,
I'll live without it,
like I've done the years before, I met you

When you walked away
I couldn't ignore the fact that you were gone
forever this time
My eyes are dripping wet, of the crying

That's when I watched you seal your grave,
together with all your so called friends.
I tried to save you, still wanna make you smile
But you only let me drink the pain, alone

A final conversation, which ended quite too fast,
with only your decision as goal
but now you finally know
how things need to be

But, I'm not givin' up,
I won't let you suffocate me,
You said your hell is home
but I'll show you
That hell, can be just me.

I don't owe you anything, I am aware of that
You'll die in a dream forgotten, you’ll fade away
Just like a dead memory

I've got my pride, but I ain't afraid to say;
How much I am missing you
How I am wanting you

 I'll never let you dig your grave alone

I'll be there for you
If you'll be needing me
I'll be helping you, through life and death
If I'm about to die I'll wish for you to be happy
I'll wish to be your guardian angel

I would guard you so well
I would use my words like weapons,
pierce them into you
make you slowly suffer
Like I had to, for you 

you are so self-righteous, you'll only have it your way,
but I'm still alive and my heart is still burning, pounding
only for you 

I'll make my prayer
to end it right away,
Cause that's what people do;
Making a prayer in their last moment
But this one’s more for you, than for me

A final conversation, which ended quite too fast,
with only your decision as goal
but now you finally know
how things need to be

But, I'm not givin' up,
I won't let you suffocate me,
You said your hell is home
but I'll show you
That hell, can be just me.

I don't owe you anything, I am aware of that
You'll die in a dream forgotten, you’ll fade away
Just like a dead memory

You can’t steal my afterlife
You can’t steal my afterlife

But, I'm not givin' up,
I won't let you suffocate me,
You said your hell is home
but I'll show you
That hell, can be just me.

I don't owe you anything, I am aware of that
You'll die in a dream forgotten, you’ll fade away
Just like a dead memory

I don't owe you anything, I am aware of that
You'll die in a dream forgotten, you’ll fade away
Just like a dead memory, to me

A lost dream of happiness