I have a pretty bad heartache now. I have had it for a little while now, and I'm pretty sure it'll last very much longer. Somehow I have found a way to cope with my heartache when its not on its worst.
I have fictional characters which I ship, and adore, who also inspire me.
The good thing with the characters I ship is that, its not only one show, its thousands of both shows and movies which I can watch to take my mind away when I can.
The dreams of celebrities you already know you will never get, is, for me at least, better than the longing after the one person who left you, hurt you, and who you just wish to come back to you every second of the day.
I know I don't seem very hurt, when I just replace him with some celebrities, but it has kind of been my only option, which I have taken without thinking much about it, and I have no regrets.
Its like every fandom you get into, you're sad, but its a happy kind of sad, and its so much better to just feel on that happy kind of sad feeling, than the heartache and longing.
I myself can't understand it when people say that ''that and that band saved my life'', I just can't understand that a band, or a celebrity, who you don't even know can SAVE you. I mean, then you can't be that low down, right?
I am not trying to imply that I have it worse than anybody else, cause I don't, and I won't say that those celebrities have saved my life, but they have definitely changed it, and made it a bit better, and without being there themselves, helped me a lot.
What didn't kill me, didn't make me stronger at all
It left a scar, and depressed thoughts
It left a scar, and depressed thoughts
